Genesis 18-20
Genesis 18-20 really hits me in the heart when I think back to those days when I was pregnant with our two boys. I remember the mix of excitement and fear, the long months of waiting, and wondering what life would be like once they arrived. I felt a lot like Sarah—there were moments when I thought, Can I really do this? When God told Sarah she would have a son, she laughed because it seemed so impossible. And honestly, I laughed too, in my own way. There were so many unknowns, so many things I didn’t feel ready for. But just like God promised Sarah, He’s shown me that His timing is perfect. Looking at our boys now, I see the joy and laughter they’ve brought into our lives, in ways I never could’ve imagined.
I also think a lot about Abraham’s faith. He trusted God even when it didn’t make sense, and if I’m honest, that’s something I need to hold onto more often. Raising two boys has shown me how many things are out of my control, how many moments feel like I’m just doing the best I can. But when I think of Abraham, I remember that faith doesn’t mean having all the answers or knowing exactly how things will turn out. It’s just trusting God with what’s in front of me. There are days when I feel unsure of myself as a mom, but I try to remember Abraham, who chose to believe, even when things seemed impossible.
Then there’s that story with Abraham and Abimelech, where Abraham made a mistake and wasn’t fully honest about Sarah being his wife. That part always humbles me because, as much as I want to get it right, I know I’m not perfect. I make mistakes too. And yet, just like God was gracious to Abraham, He’s so patient with me. I see how He’s been there for me, even in the moments I fall short. It’s comforting to know that God’s grace doesn’t depend on my perfection, but on His love.
When I read these chapters, I’m reminded of how much I need to rely on God for everything—His promises, His protection, and His mercy. Life as a family of four is messy and beautiful, and some days, most often than not, I feel like I’m running on faith alone. But reading these stories, I’m reassured that, just like He was with Abraham and Sarah, God is with us too. He’s faithful in ways I don’t always see right away, but looking back, I know He’s been there through it all.